extinct`

sometimes, i felt so unfair.
i hate to see the link to 404 error.
u cut off whats left for me to know more abt you.
and i am badly affected then.
though it still does affects me.

why shld i carry on blogging when others know mre abt my life,
and i don't know about their's? but i asked myself, why did i create a blog?
i did it because it is a place where i can share my life with others.
it doesnt revolves only around a particular person. yeah.

*i din wanna remove it, but i reasoned myself out that it involves you and i shld respect your decisions.


let's talk on something else.
christmas is round the corner.
and i am in the midst of preparing presents.
just to remind all of those out there, dun overlooked christmas.


i will be celebrating the day with TBT.
and i do hope they will like my presents.
it is sth i made on my own and edible
other than giving them to TBT,
and i do have a few others in mind...

*if you want a christmas present from me, just post your name.


and let's move on to some other topics.
i wanna express my unhappiness abt my mum.
can someone tell convince me that my mum is good at doing her job?

lets start from the expectations of her from me.
must be able to cook, wash the dishes, do laundry
in general, housework is the keyword.
on top of that, be caring and understanding.
assisting us and not demanding.
and also to hold/bond the family together.

so, what she manage to do? hmm.
zero. okay, i shall not frame her.
she did mop the floor or clean the toliet once in a blue moon.
but instead helping the family with problems, she's the one that created new problems.
maybe i need a maid to replace my mum?
she would always say we treat her like a maid,
and people out there are trying to let her look like a maid.

*thats one of her superstitous insensible thoughts.

the problems she created.
1.stock market.
2.money.
3.security.
4.family bond.
5.suspicious of family members.
6.accusations.

*i shall not elaborate further on the points.

so, will we children be happy?
study hard, she says.
first of all, who will have the mood to study under such living environment?
secondly, you are'nt supportive and creates problems for us.
thirdly, for whom or what am i studying so hard for?

*god is still fair to me. a gr8t dad + 3 silblings to make up for it.

anyway, my dad is a gr8t model for me to learn from.
although he wasn't this nice to us when we were younger,
but i guess he has learnt and changed along the way.
quit smoking and drinking,
had been tolerent of my mum's nonsense for the sake of the family,
pays more attention to our well-being.

if i were him, i would have given her two tight slap and said
" Enough of your nonsense, and stop acting like a baby! "
" Why won't you grow up? " " What a lousy example to the children! "

at the age of forty, you could only look at your life and say "SORRY."