Xmas Presents`

ELISA

i like the shoes VERY MUCH OKAY~ but they don't fit me =(

YVONNE

nice coco crunch made treat, and i loved the christmas tree.

JANE

christmas hat is the best. LOVED IT. we look so cute with that on!

BETSY

i haven try on the chocolate yet, but i will call betsy in the morning when i consume 100Grams. cos the package says so. haha =D

SISTERS

the specs looks cool but i dun really think it fits me well. as for the leather assccesory, not bad! i will wear it some time.

they are so beautiful.

my present can't compare to their's.

their ideas and presents are always so special.

but i will continue to make presents.

this way, i will improve.

and by the way,

does making muffins make a guy look GAY?

i am very bothered by that you know.

what's me?

hi all, i am finally back.
i have been busy with the baking of muffins and preparations for christmas.
anyways, this christmas wasn't the best.

i've got people not knowing the significance of christmas gathering.
i've got people telling me my muffins taste OK (only).
i've got people telling me my armpit smells badly.
i've got people telling me maybe i am the GAY leader of MJKahki grp.

and i do have people telling me my muffins taste nice.
i do have people thanking me for the presents... ...

not the best christmas i've celebrated cos people spoils the mood,
some not enthu enough and people not being appreciative enough.

but i do think that i had a meaningful week.
i had spend time on baking those muffins.
i had include my heart and soul in it.
tried to fork out time for those i really cared.

maybe i didnt feel that people around me were appreciative.
cos, too many bad examples had already infested my mind.

but still, i wanna thank the following:

Elisa.

for putting in effort in hosting us once again. food and soo nice presents. always so enthu.

Jane.

for helping elisa in making the preparations and the special and cute presents.

Yvonne.

for spending time with us this year and gave us another special present too.

Betsy.

for X-changing gifts with me, telling me muffins tasted pleasent and my armpit smells.

Krys.

for trying so hard to make time for me, letting us spend time with you more.

James.

for that funny fat santa sms reply, it was meaningful and i do hope he meant it.haha.

all others.

for those who bothered to wish me MERRY CHRISTMAS.

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let's talk on sth else.

new year is round the corner.

my new year resolution list is building up.

1. To better handle anger.

2. To do business by the end of next year.

3. To swim more often and build my body.

4. Grad Poly smoothly.

5. Be Somebody in army.

6. .....more.....

i still have plenty to say but have to pause here,

continue when i continue.

`cya

yea. christmas.

the muffins i tried making on the 1st attemp.

surprising that they are edible.

must be the recipe that works.

but they dun look lyk muffins yet.

looks like not many people interested in my muffins.

nevermind.

i am still gonna poison those friends.

=P

i had just bought a swimming cap.

but i look strange with that on.

haven't been excercising.

and had been waking up late.

sian (1/2)

:

:

i want my toned, lean and fit body back.

not this white flabby chick.

*庸人自扰

extinct`

sometimes, i felt so unfair.
i hate to see the link to 404 error.
u cut off whats left for me to know more abt you.
and i am badly affected then.
though it still does affects me.

why shld i carry on blogging when others know mre abt my life,
and i don't know about their's? but i asked myself, why did i create a blog?
i did it because it is a place where i can share my life with others.
it doesnt revolves only around a particular person. yeah.

*i din wanna remove it, but i reasoned myself out that it involves you and i shld respect your decisions.


let's talk on something else.
christmas is round the corner.
and i am in the midst of preparing presents.
just to remind all of those out there, dun overlooked christmas.


i will be celebrating the day with TBT.
and i do hope they will like my presents.
it is sth i made on my own and edible
other than giving them to TBT,
and i do have a few others in mind...

*if you want a christmas present from me, just post your name.


and let's move on to some other topics.
i wanna express my unhappiness abt my mum.
can someone tell convince me that my mum is good at doing her job?

lets start from the expectations of her from me.
must be able to cook, wash the dishes, do laundry
in general, housework is the keyword.
on top of that, be caring and understanding.
assisting us and not demanding.
and also to hold/bond the family together.

so, what she manage to do? hmm.
zero. okay, i shall not frame her.
she did mop the floor or clean the toliet once in a blue moon.
but instead helping the family with problems, she's the one that created new problems.
maybe i need a maid to replace my mum?
she would always say we treat her like a maid,
and people out there are trying to let her look like a maid.

*thats one of her superstitous insensible thoughts.

the problems she created.
1.stock market.
2.money.
3.security.
4.family bond.
5.suspicious of family members.
6.accusations.

*i shall not elaborate further on the points.

so, will we children be happy?
study hard, she says.
first of all, who will have the mood to study under such living environment?
secondly, you are'nt supportive and creates problems for us.
thirdly, for whom or what am i studying so hard for?

*god is still fair to me. a gr8t dad + 3 silblings to make up for it.

anyway, my dad is a gr8t model for me to learn from.
although he wasn't this nice to us when we were younger,
but i guess he has learnt and changed along the way.
quit smoking and drinking,
had been tolerent of my mum's nonsense for the sake of the family,
pays more attention to our well-being.

if i were him, i would have given her two tight slap and said
" Enough of your nonsense, and stop acting like a baby! "
" Why won't you grow up? " " What a lousy example to the children! "

at the age of forty, you could only look at your life and say "SORRY."

Be prepared`

smokers smoke and they can still be choosy.
the picture printed on the box has a few designs.
many disliked the one with a BABY and chose others.
i wonder why. fear? if yes, what was it?

afraid of the retribution that might affect his/her own family?
or was it so scary that it might haunt them at night?
anyway, if any of these are the reasons, i would encourage the govt to print them all with only the baby picture. i guess that's my desperate move to discourage smokers from smoking.

speaking of that, if were cracking your brains for ideas for christmas gift for those whom are smokers, a relative good gift would be a lung-shaped ash tray. when the tray is filled up with ashes, the whole "lung" is black in colour and that reflects the condition of his/her lungs. i liked the idea.

currently, wz is away to taiwan.
just the day before he went, we spend lots of time together.
he came to look for me at kovan for a light dinner and we chatted.

we talked about future, studies, and working experience.
it was our mistake not to realise the importance of O levels,
but should we also not realise the importance of what's lying ahead?

after our NS, what will you want to do?
work? or studies?

if you are working, what will you be working as then?
is that relevant to your diploma?
how much are you expecting to earn?
what benefits are you expecting then?

if you are going for further studies, where?
what are you studying? relevant to your diploma?
how long is it gonna take you?
how much does it cost?
how will the degree help you in your future?
what are you expecting after that?

after a long coversation, i came down to a conlcusion.
i will take over my dad's stall a step by step.
learning the ropes now, and upgrade myself.
pick up management courses and expand the business.
i will not think too far yet, so lets just make sure the stall itself doesnt fail in my hands.
if i am able to let it grow steadily, venturing into other areas are just a matter of time.

then, he went home but we arranged a jog at 1030pm. so, as he jogged, i walked. we both spend another 2 hrs chit chatting. this time round we were talking about relationships. yeah, its the emo part of the entry again. we started to identify the problems that arosed when we were IN a relationship.

the most significant was decresing self-esteem. i had totally no idea why, but we guys would tend to compare ourseleves with others. then we would hypnotise ourseleves that we are not as "good " as others. soon, the crack became a huge one, and there's no ways of mending it back. gone.

slowly, i found myself recalling the past. the recent past. what i did. what i said. how i felt.

i have no qualms about telling the incident a year ago. i am not that kind of person that will pick up something easily. neither will i put it down straight away. to be honest, i am still feeling guilty.

can i have a MERRY christmas this year?
*sorry for everything. to everyone.

term test was easy.

really. i am not smart.

but, they were easy.

and i CHEEBAI failed to score.

MCOM.my confident subject.

17marks gone.hate it.

not that i dunno how to do.

but i doubt my own ans.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

hate it.

can i have one more try?

i dun mind failing.

i jus wanna prove, i can.

can i ? =(

solution to loneliness

get your butt somewhere else.
i am so busy now.happy.
i don't have a gf.
i am happy.
so.
yes.
get moving.
ask me out.
holiday is here.
i am ready to have fun this time round.
get hyper soon~