the date is near.
the pressure is on.
i am refering to the exam results.
i jolly well know that i NEED to do well.
and i told myself that i NEED to study.
i tried.but not hard enough.
i am lacking of discipline.
SELF-discipline.
now, its only worries that fills my mind.
with reference to my previous post,
i wanted to say that...
i am working on my face, my body
and my soul to become a person as a whole.
the whole package.
i keep telling myself that i will move on from here.
i want to impress the world.
i want that praises from the others.
VAIN?haha.
YES, VERY~
no doubt about that.
frankly speaking, i am happier.
i could worry less about love affairs,
and concentrate more on my friends,
family that has always been important to me.
i guess my inner-self has realised that
its time to grow up and be matured.
when i look at others, i would always wonder.
How's their life like?
better than mine?
worse than mine?
am i "better" than them?
when i said "better",
i meant by the moral and mental level.
not the monetary stuffs.
i always thot that i would win others bcoz
i could endure toughness, endure hardships
and probably handling relationships better.
then, these few years...
i been living better and better.
bcoming pampered.
i dun like people to look at me and say
"that guy's dad own a coffee stall mah~"
"aiyah, his dad is rich!"
"ah xia kia"
i wanna look for that tough guy in me.
he's lost.missing
i miss those days when i "preach".
i would have alot of "sayings" and "theory"
to tell my friends why and how things were.
then they will say...robin...
u talk alot of reasoning, logic and sense.[道理]
sometimes they are irritated by me.
but i still love those times.
they seems to have disappered.
and i have been "preach" more often.
it seems like i need more ppl to ans my qns these days.
why is it happening?
they say we should look into the future,
but where were the good old days we missed?
shouldnt they be reminisced?
