abt the exam results

i passed,but i had ppl in my cls fail.i din pass too well oso.juz pass kind...i was thinking to myself then...although i passed,but i still lagged of the knowlegde which i will suffer when the time comes...i had been using new care T3 body wsh...not bad leh...like gt a bit better...nice..walking towards my target...and clearisi products are the must have loh...kk...nth big deal to comment abt,din wrk,din play ...juz slagged so dun so "lo so"...

forget it bah

din post for a few days...i think it was more than a week...stupid me,i had no mood to write too...everyday stayed at home and started to rot...wad else do i have to write...it the same old thing always...hmm..its time i train myself...my body..do some serious facial..for who i dunno ...coz i want people to love me...literally ...how i wish i could do sth for a gal i love..but there isnt such a person yet...idiot me...i want to be beatiful...nice...handsome...a guy that people will stare when i walk pass..how could it be?i want to be love...desperate liao larh...too long nvr love..lost the kind of feeling...its bad..i am turning gay liao...help me..urgh!

t h u r s d a y

woke up this morning.. did a huge laundry which consist of 20+shirts...wah..wash so many piece at one go...damn tiring loh...then later had a bite...slaged...watched tv and nap[keep doing this these few days]den woke up sweaty ard 2+ near to 3.took a bath and gt ready to go out and help dad at shop...den mum said help her go buy lunch...urgh!so bo bian...went to hougang green...got mine too...then while eating away at home...she spoke to me...asking me whether should she visit gramps now?...i was like...?huh?...i am going out liao and u r telling me this?kaoz...!then i phoned my dad asking him if he can cope with the crowd...he said alrite so i stayed at home and waited for sis's return before i could go.but in the meantime...she did change to go out...dragged till when the weather turns bad then she started complaining...wha lau! but nvm...as soon as sis came home...i went out to take 101...off i went to heartland mall.

w e d n e s d a y

nth special,went to cut hair...damn long and bushy...like a bunch of grass in black colour only...went with wz ...he gt a short and spiky kind of look...hmmm mine's abit ah beng...i din ask for the hair style,i juz ask the hair stylist to cut loh...i dunno wad i wanted oso..looks okay so its fine...cost 12 dollars only...so mai hiam larh..wanted to go play pool after that but wz dun have bucks liao so went home..i guess it was a gd decision coz i had been spending quite a big sum on the entertainment...last mth bank statement shocked me...phew!...had to control abit this mth...

t u e s d a y

finally i caught up with the date...this entry is on time...i realise if we din go out to play pool,cs,sentosa or anything ...there's totally no conection inbetween me and frnds...nth special occured...but i knew that disney in hong kong opened today and andy lau complained their service is lousy...

m o n d a y - i s l a n d

i went sentosa wib my poly frnds...sian...so many din go...they all cannt make it but at least dere were 12 person...hmm woke up at 8.30 by my alarm...den later kit called....asked me gt bring volleyball...den i say have...coz last night james reminded me before i slept...den when i hung up the phone,i saw i had a msg...james asked me did i bring ball...looked closely..it was sent before kit's call...wah piang...3 reminders...but i abit uncomfortable with he grp leh..playing along is fine but i dun seems to blend in real well..sometimes dunno what to chat with them coz i dun play dota and den my com cannt play maple...dunno why...den we all no link liao...den i dunno why i started the topuc of condom..i dunno what they think about me...will they think i am horny?...sexually deprived?den hours later while they were in the waters...i was lying on the beach...no one came to chat..so i took it that i was sun tanning...i dun feel like getting in the waters and the grp dun quite know how to play volley[den why keep asking me to bring?]...until 4 + i kept pestering few to go play volley then they started to join me...others were left in the waters..later they went off to wash up without us.they wanted to 'bc' kai...but since he is with us...they might as well bc the four of us...kaoz...it wasnt too bad overall...i wasnt unhappy throughout but felt that it could be better and there are still some gaps inbetween me and the grp.*how?*

s u n d a y

i abit siao liao loh...everytime need to recall wad happen juz to cover those entries i had missed out...holy shit*...hmm what happened on sunday?...well i can remember seeing zhi chen.he came with a guy whom is older than him and zc looks ugly...[some may think he always is ugly]his face gt pimples and his hair were reaching shoulder length...it is in golden blend kind of colour ...i was thinking to myself...why make yourself like that?*haiz...he's a wasted talent.later that day i went back home juz to wash my dirty lundary...and den went back to shop to help out...anything big deal happen loh...but i realised a new shop had started business in heartland mall.trendy clothes sia...temping me to buy liao...

s a t u r d a y

stupid day coz i need to go back scout to help out.our scout troop is 40 yrs old now..-same as the country-den they organised a activity sort of like the family day .parents of our scouts were asked to come down and look what the scouts had fro such a long time.hmmm i planned the progs with tay and i went quite good.one of the part,i had to be the host like that to tell what they had to do and still joke somemore..but i dun feel kan jiong leh!*woohoo!*den my venture leader told me i did nt bad...annual camp mc -he knows who to find -he says.i wasnt on cloud nine this time round..coz i dun think it was a good one...well anyway sth about him...i din know he told nice pictures,i mean his photography skills were good..if by any chance i will post his works here ...*admire sia*den later that day went to plaza for lan again...tay and sean came late and we had already played finished...so we went to downstairs to get roti prata...fill our stomach. chit chat and we planned on playing majong this fri den ton at frnds hos den sat go sentosa straight..siao liao we all chiongsters...haha,do it now arhbo next time dun have thi kind of time...*cherish darlings*

e n g i n e f u n d a m e n t a l s

i had to cover those days when i miss out writing.many things happened over the weekend.ok lets start.i did the exam..felt that iwas okay but i realise many stuff i still ka lan ka bo kind...but i still cling on that slim thin tiny pinch of hope that bcoz of my lab tests and quizs...i can pass the subject and dun need to take sub loh.*pray*.At night went to plaza has usual to meet up wib buddies but before that i went to visit 4th uncle...he juz had a operation...he had sth called tyroid..it grew in the throat i think...but not serious coz he had a succesful operation.*kind of suae,coz suddenly went to so many hospital..*we din play too long..before switching it to pool...tay went home...left me wz, and sean ...we had quite a fun night...talk so much crap when playing pool...funnie...

t h r u s d a y

i came to realise that i am a person whom need be under pressurised to get things done.i jolly well know i am seriously in deep shit coz i haven study.and i had to help out at my dad's stall today.how was i able to attend to both task?but it turned out that i could be disciplined out dere,at least when i am outside.maybe it was the enviroment-temptation free-.i had managed my time sort of better than yesterday.i did revision of 3 chpts and did help my dad.juz now, my mum called my dad.asked him if he could pack up early and drive her to see gramps.aunt called said he was seriously unwell...so we speed up and pack up and ard 8.30 we reached hm.then when we came home,mum said they called from hospital again.gramps is stablised but they knew he couldnt last too long,so they poped the qns._what wishes do u have?_and he said "i still have two kids that i haven see..."so what he meant was my two uncles.one was more likely to visit.the other...maybe unable to...he is still inside.*squatting*chinese humans will roughly know what i mean.*yellow ribbon*-for those who dun understand.so i was thinking to myself-isnt that sad?we cant fulfill his wishes.*sigh*what to do?i am not visiting tonight.gt a exam to catch tommrow morning.i guess i will be visiting him tml afternoon,if he still can make it.
___i nvr called him ah gong___

w e d n e s d a y- s l a g

i din write a entry yesterday,i din study either.shit me.what the hell?but i guess the lazy personalilty i had in me has convinced myself that based on my previous test and practical,i could pass easily with minimal of revision.that was it.and i trusted my laziness.hope that helps.*blink-blink*.thinking*is that possible?*

m a t h m a d n e s s

i took the exam at 230.kind of fluck that coz later then i realise i had did a grave mistake.nvm abt that,i am already preparing for sub papers.lets hope i could qualify for subs.went to SGH to visit my grandfather(mum's dad).well it's like this.Years back,when my mum was still a child,her dad betrayed her mum.he gt another woman out there and had a child.as the oldest child in the family,my mum took up great responsiblity to take care of her 4 young brothers.4 Brothers..they cry when mum is not yet back at night,fight over toys...everything.typical childish behaviour.later they divorced.from then her dad rarely came to look for us.my mum did not like him too much.but i guess she din hate him either.Years later,now he is dignosed with colon cancer.Doctors told him that if he is to undergo operation,chances of recovery is slim and he might not make it through the operation.he has choosen to wait.For miracle maybe.A faithful believer of buddism...relied on tailsmen .Pinned his hope on that to relief him.He gt a bloated stomach and puffy harden legs.He's a stranger to me...for 16 years at least.when i look back into the past while i fliped through the photo album,he's ... ...*what to say?*... ...Long lost grandfather and now?...losing him soon...when will it be? no idea. L E T ' S W A I T & S E E.

m o n d a y study b ut su x

woke up 930 this morning but waited and slaged till 12 noon then did some work..went to get lunch-suppose to be my late breakfast.the weather is damn good,but i am stuck with the whole load of work that i am suppose to finish by tomorrow morning.Then i would have to take my exams at 230.right now, i dont tink i can pass my maths exam.i would probably need to take the sub papers.

s u n d a y

i din make it to write for yesterday...my sis was using the com when i came back.morning went to help dad as usual,ard 10am and saw alot of people wearing sports out fit walking ard.that reminds me of the muzo wave run ...starts frm 7 30 to 9 30 and they all stinks...but it's forgivable.i din have a chance to study at all.now still stuck wif math while others are attacking on engin fund...i dun think i can finish revising maths and i am mentally prepared to take up the subs.my laziness has taken control of me...

c a n c e r

One of the judge say kelly is a typical cancer,she must be pushed and encouraged many times before she will move and act --a bit.Am i one too?i 've been soo lazy these few days although i jolly well know that i could play for all i want after the semestral exam.The temptations were to great for me to resist.I had been playing pool,counter- strike these days and i am not yet addicted to it but the most problematic thing was i am not able to be self-discipline enough to make myself sit down and study.I could scold a person for almost anything that's unrightfully done,but that's only being infront of others then will i display a dicplined self.Sad right?Fake right?I dunno whats wrong with me.people will look at me as that kind of person that would'nt make any offence and a very upright guy.i wanted to be that way too.i want to be discipline,but how to?I always potrate myself as a mature,yet sensitive guy.URgh!How to get rid the lazy worms out of me?
*Somebody Save Me !...(or else silence me please,living on is a torture)

Superstar

Kelly lost to kelvin but i think that was a splendid lost.Some may think that i am crazy but do u know that kelvin went to play music while kelly goes to universal?Look at how play music market joi chua...her album..every song was a hit...that was bcoz they kept playing on the radios and tv...now i am soo sick of it.I had more expectations from kelly while her vocal is good and has a superstar stance...she could pair up with jun yang to release her first album...that makes her album more interesting..how far can kelvin go?i predict that kelvin can not go more than 3 album and his sales wil drop...by the 3 rd on..his sales will be 1/3 of his first.By back to the point...what superstar is this?public's superstar?how can this be?well it's not that i dun like kelvin's win and therefore i said these words...we all know that a phone call cost 60cents and anyone can vote...if u have the money,vote as u like!If we picture this...president election..u gt more money u vote more...let some bastard win ...so...mediacorp cheated the public on that!...who knows how many votes were casted for them and how many votes did kelly lost?will we ever know?not likely unless there is a riot created...

Blogging

i din know that blogging is helpful...today juz remembered the intersch bloggging competetion website...tooo late...ended yesterday...ppl like xia xue became famous bcoz of her daring blog entries...truthful?...being herself ...thats good...now even gov is oso promoting blogging...enhance the english lang. ....haha...i had once felt that blogging is a waste of time and nth to do...but now then i realise it could be meaningful if u want it to be...flood it with your lyricz...poems...plentiful vocab...frm today i will make myself to fill in a entry a day...keep track of my english standard too...