Whao!...i've been so ...dunno how to describe too...poor english vocabulary...but the point that i want to say is that i 've been living day by day doing nth that is meaningful...till yesterday...i sort of got hold of my own life...every now and then i will feel lost and dunno wad to do...i muz ont let laziness take control of me!!!hmmm...juz then realise that we all had started to leave each other...not needing the usual group of friends any more... doesnt matter, does it? we all have learnt to leave everything behind to walk into new lease of life...as and when...i will remember the days we had...i missed them...but i have to go...someday, that is.....i am still learning to stand alone,blending into my grp of poly frnds...i had joined a few clubs...i- hub, engineering studies club, going to TPSU sub -com soon...and i am the class rep for my cls...pretty heavy huh?...but i like it this way...these activites occupy me and colour my poly life...it helps me to forget the loneiness that i had...know more people in this world is good...isnt it?At least when u leave...[ARGHHH!!!!!!!!!Dunno LARH!!!!]

I longed for a new relationship....it's been a long time...i want to be love and love someone else...but...in poly...friends are those who will say hi to you when met...and that's all...i dun even have a chance to know someone well...before getting the gal...i dun wanna be a bastard in love....if i would force myself to love someone now...and later telling her that i dun like her really....would'nt that be terrible?So whar am i suppose to do?haiz....let sit down and stare at the starry sky and wait for my love to arrive....

That handphone shop looked exceptionally emtpy and big with only 1 person in it.It used to be two...the shop had just expanded its area...kinda sad rite?i oso heard that he was wif a gal when accident happened...that gal was hospitallised...and made it alive..i was wondering...how would the gal felt...although they aren't together for a long time....haiz...'tao hua jie'....his partner told me and my dad that he had changed alot of galfriends during since working at kovan...so...is it fortunate or unlucky to have 'tao hua'?Go peacefully bah...i will miss u...u will be in my heart.

Today went to sen's again...played volley,more than last week.But still didnt get to play with others much.Bcoz someone different opinon,we cant play as a team...sian..hope it gets well next week.

Heard from my dad that a man that i knew that sell handphones at kovan had died.i was shocked...that guy, gave me a discounted price when i was helping wz looking for hp...he would oso buy drinks from us everyday...i had a impression that he is a nice guy.i think he is only 20-30?...so young...we even chat and joke...i remember giving him the pineapple drinks when me and dad was going home...i last saw him on thurs...i went to help dad that day...after our kbox.i remember selling the drinks to him...my last service....how would i know that that is the last time i would see him?he rode motocycle and had an accident...it happened on fri early morning...3am+...so sudden..now..i dunno how to accept the fact loh...tml go stall and see that shop...reminds me of him...it's the first time i feel sad for someone that special....he's special in a way...i carn name it ....such a pity...i dunno when will i last see u all...who would leave this world tml?this is really a WOW...coz i dunno how to take it loh...feel sad...feel like crying oso...haiz...

Wz, Cm, Sean and i went k box...a very new experience for me...nvr been to k-box yet...my first time leh!Quite fun and we did some bonding larh...sing along...scream...shout...yell..everything larh...but we didnt use spoon to dig sean butt...damn disgusting leh!...eek...!Den i find the waiter's attitude sux...come in ask' what you all want?'...den didnt smile at all...no thank you...fuk...charge $2.70 for this kind of service?Singapore need to grow...in servicing sector...When we go again huh?[But wait till i get more allowence 1st hor!]

Where is tay?Taking photo loh!

-fantastic five-

-Fantastic Five-

Ok...although i know the whole thingy liao...sean has explained...but i carn help it nt to find him kuai lan...[the bad impression is dere] sry...i wld try to erase...chatted on msn with bros last nite till this morning 3+...wow...nvr like that before loh...it is fate i think, we didnt plan this and juz happen that all of us online...haha we tok cock and joke...inbetween discuss the problems we had and misunderstandings....was a gd speak up session...we shld do that more often..hehe... den the com is gonna blow!Like wad we had discussed ytd,although we are bros...but...stimes we juz dun understand each other that well...we think we do,the fact is we dont...sho...we shld learn...to listen...to care...den in that case will our frndship last...frankly speaking...if there wasnt wz and tay in tp[like sean like that] i wld felt out of place and feel so loney and soon will go into depression i guess...luckily uall were there for me ...lunch time at least can meet awhile and chat...arh bo i sure die in dere...thx guys...for evevrthing u all had given me...everytime meeting up is an special event.

I dunno when will sean see this, but i like to say that i dun like the atmosphere juz now[cs+pool]...his friend may not be unfriendly but i kind of turn out you and your frnds are closer than us...i know chim ming is very 'chi bye' but...u know wad he is like mah...then cs rite, both of you team up fight us...den pool that time when you and i playing,chin ming and weizhong saw him grinning...was he laughing at my pool skills?wad the ****?after his evil grin...he would talk to you...wad sia.....?next time dun jio you and pls...u dun jio me...i rather leave it tis way...dun jio go out wun get this kind of thots and can maintain frndship still...after this cs thingy rite...i felt that you re better off with your poly frnds...you dun need us...u sounded like u miss us when we were at sentosa...so i thot few of us go out more often before u really had to move to jurong[although nt confirm yet]maybe i am sensitive but...i think that i have wasted my money becoz tay din go, we din had real fun ...some how the friendship drifted apart.[for the moment]we din enjoy,or at least i didnt...why mus it be this way?
Boys grew to be man and i am still a kid-timid and naive.

This week is term test week...everyone damn stress but i think i slag...ending this week wif a sentosa outing on sat...anyone interested can sms me...tell me..we all go together...next week jiu break liao...finally some brEAK...longing for it sia...Thanks to all who greeted my happie birthday de ppl..